Wednesday, April 23, 2014

Tonight's Interview on Darkness Radio

Darkness Dave (Schrader) interviewed me tonight (7-10pm Pacific Time) on Darkness Radio.  

The Precise location of my bigfoot sighting near Spirit Mountain, Oregon, an area known for UFO and orb activity, as well.

In the three hour interview, I narrate some of the ghostly encounters that happened to me while I was living in a haunted ranch house as a kid, as well as other events that happened later (in my mid-30's) while I was living in a "bachelor pad" with several friends in Southeast Portland.  
In addition to some rather hair-raising experiences with ghosts, I move on to cover some of the sasquatching experiences that happened over the course of a decade or so of intense research, camping, and experiments with telepathic communication.
The discussion covers some in-depth details about squatching near Spirit Mountain (Oregon), The Devil's Triangle (between Mt. St. Helens and Mt. Adams in Southwestern Washington), Helion Creek Canyon in the Clackamas River Basin (Oregon), and Goat Mountain (South Hillockburn Road, just off Highway 211, Oregon).
It's interesting to note that Spirit Mountain is known for all sorts of intra-dimensional phenomenon, including UFO's, orbs (especially mini orbs that seem to function as monitoring probes of sorts), and intra-dimensional portals.

The area actually has a great deal in common with the Skookum Meadow area in Southwestern Washington. Thirteen years ago, I began squatching in earnest between Lone Butte and Squaw Butte (on each side of Skookum Meadow). This was the time that I was conducting a great deal of research for my novel, Kultus.

"Darkness Dave" Schrader

At any rate, I thoroughly enjoyed chatting with Dave tonight. His program is quite informative, as well as entertaining. It was a pleasure to share what I know about ghosts, sasquatches, UFO's, and Men in Black ("plaid" in my case).

Click here for Darkness Radio's archives that feature the three interviews with me on 4/23/2014.

Links of Interest

My personal experiences with the Bigfoot/UFO Connection

My personal experiences growing up in a haunted house

Physical contact with ghosts at night

Lessons from Beyond

Zombies and Sasquatches

My appearance in "Sasquatch & Us," a documentary by Chris Munch. (Chris is the writer/director of Letters from the Big Man, a feature length film about a bigfoot habituation scenario of sorts that ends up being  the bigfoot habituating a woman rather than vice versa)

Sasquatches and their tactical use of long range acoustics

Monday, April 21, 2014

A Near-Death Experience

I lived through a brush with death (nearly dying of toxic botulism) and that does have an impact upon my point of view in this regard. I was unable to seek medical assistance and my complete recovery after three days was what people might call "a miracle."

After having lived through the experience, I actually find the term "miracle" a little distasteful, at lest in the modern connotation. Rather, I feel quite certain that I, for whatever reason, was privileged to glimpse a state of active (not passive) harmony that is the norm, rather than some sort of aberration. This state of the sweetest most secure bliss is completely natural, normal, and "right."

The light that seemed to reach out to me with glowing rays or tendrils was not like sunlight. It was intelligent, deeply loving, and complete, without any need to "go somewhere" or "arrive." 

In this way, at the point where I could I have died, I didn't feel as though my soul was hesitating to leave its body. Instead, I felt as though I was waking up from a dream of never having "lived" in a body to begin with. 
A near-death experience taught me that dying is not a free ride to heaven or a one way ticket to hell
At one point during my near-death experience, the most critical moment, my internal organs went completely "off line." I couldn't breathe, my body was numb, and my stomach was hard as a rock. Everything started to go dark. My eyes no longer worked. But that was only the beginning of a brief "vision" that I was very fortunate to experience.
Even as my physical eyes went dim, I saw a glowing golden light that brought comfort and a feeling of "vast sentience" to my consciousness.
I was more happy in that instant than at any other point in my life. I felt like a newborn baby seeing his mother for the first time, except my physical eyes were actually closed.
I tried to "hold on" to this light and the act of trying to hold on pushed me away from it, until I awakened to a near-complete healing. My memory was still affected. I couldn't remember numbers and combinations of numbers, such as my ATM code, birthday, etc., but gradually all memories returned within three days' time.
It is my conclusion, after the fact, that we humans exist in a temporary dream state here on this earth, and that the active harmony of the source energy or love that I felt is the atmosphere from which we have come and to which we all shall (eventually) return, after we transcend the trap of sensory limitation (whether in this life, or subsequent lives elsewhere in some other material form).
I'm not sure how this ultimate metamorphosis from material to spiritual will be accomplished, aside from the direct role that source energy/love will play in helping to liberate us from the realm of the senses. Be this as it may, one thing is certain: dying does not "solve" or "resolve" much of anything (in my view).
In this way, I tend to think that the phrase "near-death" experience is actually fairly inaccurate. Rather, what I experienced was a "near-life" experience--the life we all have when we are not trapped in the dream of physical limitation here in this seeming "world," which might be a matrix-type dream state. I felt more alive during the moments that I directly encountered "God's love" than at any other point in my earthly experience.

Sunday, April 13, 2014

Footstock Northwest

Interstellar Tie-Dye Anyone?

Yesterday, I attended Footstock NW out at a 50 acre private farm in West Linn. Jeff Rhone organized the event and it was quite refreshing. Why? Because the crowd was filled with "intuitives." (I don't like the word "sensitives" because it seems kind of weak, frankly, when actually, the concept that it connotes has more to do with inner strength and resilience.)

An "intuitive" is someone who can intuit the fact that sasquatches are more than mere apes. Intuitives also are sensitive to various aspects of paranormal phenomenon including telepathy. Because modern culture has been socially engineered to equate such things with mental disorders like schizophrenia most intuitives have been forced "underground" to large extent. This was not always the case. Most human civilizations prior to this period recognized the importance of extra sensory perception and even valued it highly, as well as actively using it.

This type of discrimination against intuitives was amped up as the (Western) social sciences came into the fore in the 20th Century and modern psychology was manipulated to cut human beings off from some of their greatest strengths like "gut feelings" that include an ability to send and receive messages mentally (along with most other advanced mammals and other animals like ravens, parrots, and even the larger cephalopods like Humboldt squid and the larger octopi.

Why were humans most likely cordoned off from their "higher reasoning" and intuition? Well, the obvious answer is a "no brainer": In order to control them easier by cutting them off from connectivity with the earth and the universe, even while (these days) pushing New Age concepts on them in such a way as to give them an inferiority complex, and also to create internal divisions that can be manipulated, such as the rift between "liberals" and "conservatives."

At any rate, it was fun to exchange ideas with three dozen-odd select intuitives yesterday. The following people spoke (in addition to half a dozen others):

  • Jeff Rhone
  • Tish Craig
  • The anonymous owner of the ranch
  • Thom Powell
  • Henry Franzoni
  • Kirk Sigurdson

Petroglyphs from Valley of Fire State Park in Southern Nevada
Notice the swirly figure with tether attached to a box containing a very big footprint (symbolic representation of sasquatches?). This particular illustration really resonates with me because I suspect sasquatches are "working" for higher agencies, perhaps even against their wills. The swirly figure, although anthropomorphic, has qualities that are consistent with waves, energy, and fluctuation. It's possible that such a representation is meant to depict inter-dimensionality. Of course, this is merely one possible interpretation of what it could mean.
Modern anthropologists are becoming less constrictive and restrictive about jumping to conclusions. "Explaining" away such illustrations as "this" or "that" is one indication of unscientific thinking. Yes, anthropologists these days are finally content to say, "Well, we really don't know the answer, but here are a few possibilities." Ah, isn't that refreshing to hear, particularly when one raises an interpretations such as the one I have raised and a tour guide does not laugh it off as absurd? Thom's presentation went into some depth about a similar interaction with a park ranger/anthropologist-in-residence that he found to be quite a relief (about the artistic stone reliefs under discussion). "Nonjudgmental" was the key word. Thom shared photographs that he took during a recent trip to Nevada of some very interesting petroglyphs indeed.

Jeff's talk was fascinating. He spoke about everything from dancing columns of light to BF sightings (which included tactile contact), to missing time. Henry was up to his usual stellar form, speaking about the way sasquatches can create mini-black holes mentally through the manipulation of energy fields. He also went so far as to say that everyone who stays with sasquatching long enough would come to the same conclusions that he has: "If you end up bigfooting for forty years, you will understand what I'm talking about."

Even though many people in the crowd smiled at such a categorically sweeping statement, they were easy-going enough to be receptive and understanding, even if they didn't happen to agree with such sentiments. Everyone with experiences has something unique to share with others, and even if the idea of sasquatches creating psychically robust mini-black holes does not happen to jive with their own personal experience or weltanschauung, intuitives are good at getting along and not chalking exclusive statements up to ego because they recognize that they are all connected and can feel this connection, which is normally quite relaxing and nurturing.

My talk focused on the importance of regulating and maintaining control of telepathic contact. I discussed how I made a conscious effort to cut off telepathic contact with (alleged) sasquatches when I realized the link could be manipulated to their benefit most of the time, which did not necessarily always benefit my needs as a human and a sentient individual member of the universe. I also emphasized how people should not believe everything they "hear" on the "coconut telegraph." Psychic communication is an advanced form of cerebral activity that isn't necessarily dependent upon the frontal lobes.

In other words, you never know who or what is on the "other end" of the "coconut telegraph." Just because you receive a psychic communicae, does not make the message you receive correct, benevolent, or linked to Source Consciousness (God).

In fact, over the course of about three years, I gradually recognized the dynamic to be fairly invasive and unwelcome after I determined this fact, and so I effectively cut off direct communication as well as peripheral communication like inadvertent remote viewing (psychic eaves dropping). Again, people at Footstock were quite kind after my talk, applauding generously, even though some of them probably did not share my caution and analytical scrutiny when it comes to psychic communication. In fact, later, one prominent member of the event confessed that he would sometimes throw up his hands and say, "If you need my energy, come get it! I offer it freely to you in order to help you materialize here on this plane of experience." I can't think of anything more counterintuitive to my own personal POV than that! And yet, I consciously made the effort not to appear alarmed or critical of such an approach to bigfooting.

On another subject, I am giving thought to writing a book on the subject of intuitives, bigfooting, ghosts, UFO's, mothmen, MIB, and other spectral phenomenon. I've been dragging my feet for about three years due to the fact that it is a "fringe" topic in our culture that will not earn me kudos in the workplace or among friends and family that have been trained to live their lives under the thumb of exclusionarily devisive social programming and indoctrination that is designed to side-line psychic intuition as "weird, nutty, and suspect."

All told, Footstock NW was a resounding success! Thanks Jeff!


Henry Franzoni listens carefully to Jeff Rhone's account of spectral sasquatch phenomenon.

Audience members take notes as Thom Powell narrates his recent trip to the psychic hinterlands (ancient petroglyphs in Nevada). Yes, as you can see, "Goats" (men with goatees) were perhaps in the majority, but there were also quite a few women present, as well as some kids.
Women contributed some fantastic (and fantastical) narratives, as well as insights, to the event, thereby greatly enriching everyone's experiences and understanding of "paranormal" bigfooting.

Paranormalists in the field of bigfooting do not allow their discipline to be dominated by a somewhat macho perspective that can sometimes rear its ugly head in an audience   of "apers" (bigfooters who maintain that sasquatches are nothing more than a reclusive species of ape). Then again, paranormalists can also sometimes loose their grounding in reality--even by paranormalists' standards. 
Just as apers can benefit from being more open minded about evidence and eyewitness reports that don't fit into their pre-conceived "bell curve," paranormalists can certainly take a few big cues from apers' attempt to remain scientifically accountable. A priori reasoning, as well as scientific inquiry, is also beneficial when applied to the paranormal.
In addition, both camps can benefit from scrutinizing cultural programming as a factor that greatly inhibits true scientific discovery and the free and open sharing of information to the benefit of all mankind, as well as the entire planetary eco-system. 

Wednesday, April 9, 2014

Exploring the Monomyth of Bigfooting

"A hero ventures forth from the world of common day into a region of supernatural wonder: fabulous forces are there encountered and a decisive victory is won: the hero comes back from this mysterious adventure with the power to bestow boons on his fellow man."

                                               --Joseph Campbell, The Hero With A Thousand Faces

The Old English Manuscript of Beowulf
In the vernacular of a post-modern anthropologist like Campbell, a "monomyth" is essentially the hero's journey towards confronting his or her nemesis. Grendel from Beowulf is a perfect example of this cultural tradition.

Grendel is many things: a man eater, a descendant of the biblical Cain, and a being with near supernatural powers. The Spear Danes who live near the swamp that is home to Grendel and his eldritch mother are horrified. Not only does Grendel kill indiscriminately, but he feasts upon the corpses of the fallen men whose lives he slaughters. 

Beowulf is a foreigner who journeys to save the remote Spear Dane hamlet. As such, he has taken a journey even before he arrives on the scene. It is interesting that, in the tale, his dark night of the soul, so to speak, may have started before he even sets out to slay Grendel. The monomyth of Beowulf begins even before the hero arrives at King Hrothgar's mead-hall.   
Was Beowulf essentially a tale of the first "bigfooter?" Perhaps. Most literary critics, college professors, and armchair anthropologists today have no idea that readers of Beowulf (or listeners to the oral tradition) were terrified of real life bog beasts, just as Native Americans were terrified of Bigfoot.  And there is a very good reason for this parallel.
These two monsters belong to the same basic species. Yes, if you want to split hairs, then Grendel might have been more akin to the Russian Almasty, rather than the larger North American sasquatch, but still, the parallel is striking.

Yes, ancient legends can be revisited in modern times. When one considers that the same inspiration for Beowulf (sasquatches) still exists today, Joseph Campbell's interpretation can seem a bit naïve and overtly Jungian. 

The most profound chords of horror in Beowulf could never be achieved without a realistic understanding of how people must have felt in ancient times, living in the close proximity to a thing whose haunting presence on the outskirts of "civilization" could not be predicted or anticipated with any degree of assurance. Beowulf captures this dynamic of uncertainty, and builds upon it expertly.
In my opinion, it's possible that the sasquatches displaced from their lands during medieval times behaved differently from their normally reclusive and shy North American brethren. It is worth pointing out that Native Americans learned the fine art of scalping from Europeans who were paid to kill them, and hence harvested scalps to prove how many natives they had slain.
In like manner, contemporary European sasquatches, even if they happened to have been the same species of hominid, may have learned some of their cruelties from the way they were treated by the small, hairless bipeds that chased them systematically out of their homes and tried, with all their might, to slay them.

It is, perhaps, more likely that Europeans were dressing up the myth of sasquatches long before these creatures were transformed into trolls through the magical art of story-telling. 

For instance, Grendel's demonic habit of eating the dead is explained through a Biblical context: he is a descendant of Cain, the accursed, who slew his brother, Abel, in the Torah's account of how the human race started, as well as the desire among humans to murder each other. In this way, the monster of Beowulf, although accursed, is essentially a human being like Beowulf, transformed through magic into a bog beast. 
When hunters find themselves face to face with a sasquatch, very few of them shoot. Most, when asked later why they did not attempt to kill the creature, reply that it "just looked too human to kill." Of course, this mercy also stems from the fact that most sasquatches upon making human contact (inadvertently) immediate desire to exit the scene at the first available opportunity. This type of meek behavior is quite different from the murderous cannibalism of Grendel. 
The troll mythos, which I contend sprang up after the diaspora of sasquatches from their native homes in Northern Europe and Russia, also embodies cannibalism. It's interesting to note that all known ape species (aside from humans) are mostly vegetarian.
Beowulf read in its Old English prose by an ambitious young scholar
A reading from Seamus Heaney's famous translation into modern English

Saturday, April 5, 2014

A Frank Discussion About the Easter Bunny

What does the Easter Bunny have in common with Santa Claus? Traditionally, both were judges of children's behavior. If kids were good, they received a gift. In a way, this form of judgment offers the illusion of paralleling the "Judgment Day" of Christianity.

Upon closer examination, however, it became a little more obvious that equating good behavior with "prizes" is synonymous with materialism, which is pretty much the opposite of Christianity's original sentiments.

Then again, almost all forms of Christianity today are radically different from Christ's original teachings, which emphasized the complete opposite of psychopathy: namely unconditional love.

Why has Christianity been warped so terribly? Because the emanation of Christ consciousness through human time was diverted, to a large extent in the Fourth Century, by Constantine. This bloodthirsty conqueror needed a belief system that would reduce Jesus to the role of a vengeful and immortal yet essentially anthropomorphic god, like Zeus, Amen Ra, or Jehovah.

The bunny in Donnie Darko (which symbolizes fate or wyrd) has about as much in common with Easter as an Easter Bunny bringing eggs and candy to "good" children. The Easter bunny seems fun and even morally inclusive, and yet, when examined at its most basic level, the premise is consistent with the lowest stage of Lawrence Kohlberg's stages of moral development ("what's in it for me?").

Such autocratic and authoritarian reinforcement of good behavior reduces it to a common denominator of materialism, which is directly opposed to Christianity.

Materialism quite easily ties into systematic collectivism, which is built upon "magical" premises like fractional reserve banking, applying violence to perpetuate peace, and business (literally the act of keeping "busy" with materialistic ventures in order to accumulate wealth, and thus associating matter-based rewards with security, happiness, and raison d'etre).

"Let's be frank" with Frank the Rabbit: Donny Darko as Operant Conditioning

Looking at BF Sightings Through "BFRO-Colored" Lenses

Some people might be surprised to find that, according to the Bigfoot Field Research Organization's database, more bigfoot sightings have been investigated (and reported) in Florida than Oregon.

Here is a list of states with the most reports:
Washington  577
California  427
Florida  269
Illinois  247
Ohio  248
Oregon  235
Michigan  181
West Virginia  92

Of course, this list is not necessarily indicative of the distribution of sasquatch populations. Due to the fact that less than four million people live in Oregon, along with the longstanding history of sightings and Native American reports and legends in parts of the state, it's likely that there are more sasquatches living in Oregon than in Florida, Illinois, or Ohio. So why the big discrepancy in terms of BFRO reportage?

Yes, more people live in Florida than in Oregon. And far more people live in Ohio or Illinois than in Oregon. This means that one family of bigfoots could generate far more sightings in these places than a whole cadre of them in Oregon. What's more, the vast majority of Oregon's population lives in the Willamette Valley, which is only about seven percent of the states overall land mass. Over half of Oregon is owned by various factions of the government, as well. These areas do not allow for human habitation, aside from camping and recreating, which tends to be sporadic when compared to areas where humans live 24/7.

Over half of Oregon is owned by government agencies, and, hence, "uninhabitable" by humans.

While there have been sightings within the Willamette Valley, the vast majority happen in less populated parts of the state. Dramatically fewer people live in those parts of Oregon, especially when compared to areas in Ohio that have featured sightings. Ohio has a very spread out human population. In other words, sasquatches can't really retreat into remote mountains there, as they can in Oregon.

Most bigfooters are well aware of the fact that BF sightings are naturally going to be highest in places where the most humans are going about their business amidst the presence of sasquatches. But what of other, less obvious, factors? 

Bigfoot researchers in Ohio are notorious for being extremely well organized and motivated. This sort of thing certainly has an affect on the amount of data that is collected, organized, and reported. So, yes, good old fashioned organizational skills also play a factor. Ohio culture is also much more open, generally speaking, than the culture of Oregonians, especially out "in the sticks" where most sightings tend to occur.

But there are other factors to consider. Like any organization, the BFRO is prone to internal politics and other factors that can affect data collection. I also happen to know from sources within the BFRO that quite a few sightings are "thrown out" if they involve "supernatural" phenomenon, such as cloaking, sudden disappearances, UFO's, or other scientifically inexplicable things.

My own personal bigfooting has taken me to places like Goat Mountain in Oregon, where UFO sightings do sometimes happen at the same time as UFO sightings. If I were to report such a sighting to the BFRO, it would most likely get thrown out or ignored. There is a good chance that no investigator would be sent to follow-up on my call, and if hard evidence like footprints were present on-site, then a UFO sighting, in conjunction with the BF sighting, would not be recorded or mentioned in the database.

Matt Moneymaker

Is this flagrant discrimination Matt Moneymaker's fault? (Matt runs the BFRO, and has done since its inception.) No, it's not his "fault." I've hung out with Matt, drinking scotch and smoking cigars well past the midnight hour around Ye Olde Campfire. It was a really fun and relaxing time. Then again, I didn't broach the topic of "cherry picking" through eyewitness reports.

This said, I didn't personally fault Matt for trying to keep an already "fringe" organization from looking even more fringe to the general public, to the media, and to academia in general. I'm not naïve enough, or idealistic enough, to do that.  What would have been the point?  It wouldn't have changed anything, at least publicly. According to my sources inside the BFRO, eyewitness accounts and even paranormal data isn't being thrown out, willy-nilly, these days, as it once was. A significant amount is (allegedly) now being saved and filed away.

Such biases and discrimination (against BF sightings with paranormal components) have more to do with the foibles of human society at present, which is dominated by "the sciences." In many ways, modern science also cherry picks through the data of life, throwing out and ignoring factors and phenomenon that don't correspond to prevailing cultural paradigms, which, yes, believe it or not, DO happen to serve the power structure of human society.

I think it's interesting to note, based upon the above list of sightings by state, that several of them have been recorded within about fifteen minutes of Washington DC (by plane) and about two hours (by car). That's awfully close to the White House!

As the top illustration (created by the BFRO) indicates, sightings are dependent upon human populations even more than sasquatch populations. I would add a caveat to this interpretation: reports by region also have to do with the type of humans present in bigfoot areas.

Any perusal of the BFRO database will show that certain populations that are isolated from the rest of American culture, at least to some extent, are less prone to report sightings and interactions. Often, these populations are more independent, as well. In other words, they don't NEED the rest of the human population to survive and even to thrive. The US government is not overly fond of such populations for obvious reasons. The autonomous nature of these subcultures means that they can't be controlled, taxed, or regulated nearly so easily as the general population.

The United States has quite a few "subcultures" that are not freely sharing their knowledge with the rest of the mainstream culture and for good reason: they've been burned time and time again by a society that tends to plunder their resources, as well as their knowledge about all kinds of things, some of which border on the supernatural.

For our purposes as BF investigators, this also translates to the fact that residents from such regions of the country are much less prone to speak with "strangers." It is even possible that such isolated cultures know much more about bigfoot than the rest of humanity, especially people that live under the thumb of a forming global system of governance. If you own a cell phone, then you are a part of the culture of which I am describing. You are "plugged in" so to speak.

Native American cultures also sometimes fit the bill when it comes to being an autonomous subculture from the rest of mainstream society. A huge percentage of native knowledge about sasquatches was lost many decades ago, and will never be recovered. Was that an accident? Was it an accident that their languages were wiped out by education systems set up by the US government nearly a hundred years ago that forced native children to speak English?

Isolated and self-sufficient human populations are naturally leery to share their knowledge, and for good reason: it can be used against them. Even knowledge of sasquatch going-on. This is certainly the case in the Appalachian mountain range, as well as certain Louisiana bayous where Cajun culture is prominent.

I think it is also the case in Minnesota, which boasts only 56 sightings. Based upon my experience vacationing in Minnesota (with friends whose families have lived there for generations) I would say that far more sightings take place there than is reflected in the BFRO database. Even though Minnesotan culture is not highly autonomous (as a full "subculture"), it still does resist outside meddling and contact more so than other cultures in America.

As a part of the Midwest, Minnesotans tend to be a bit more isolationist. Part of this could stem from the high percentage of Scandinavian immigrants there over one hundred years ago. Today, Scandinavians have been conditioned to be highly collectivist, but this was not the case back when immigrants were actually shipped over, in some cases for free, from Sweden and Norway. That was back when the US government wanted immigrants to "settle the land" as cheaply as possible. When Scandinavian settlers moved in to the Minnesota area over one hundred years ago, many of them carried folklore and cultural wisdom that already contained wisdom about forest giants. This is worth noting. Troll legends and "superstitions" were not taken lightly back then.

As for Oregon, my family goes back as far as white people have lived in the state. I can say that the BFRO in Oregon is missing quite a few sightings. It's also interesting to note that quite a few BFRO researchers over the years in Oregon are not from here. Two of my good friends that were formerly BFRO field researchers were from Ohio and Los Angels respectively.

Am I saying that "transplants" to Oregon won't be privy to some sightings that long-term residents would? Yes, I'm afraid so. Rural Oregonians are cautious about whom they tell their private business. Bigfoot sightings fit neatly into this category in a majority of cases. Why? Because the information could damage the person's reputation if it was leaked out in the wrong way.

There is a high price to be paid for being associated with bigfoot sightings. Our society has been structured in precisely such a manner in order to censor people from talking freely about their encounters. As you may know from quite a few blog posts on my site, I am quite interested in such "cultural programming," which greatly impacts peoples' willingness to report sightings--especially to organizations like the BFRO.

After all, it's being run by a lawyer that comes from a long line of Los Angeles lawyers. This fact is not lost on quite a few folks who already feel cautious about "talking." Lawyers are not high on most peoples' lists when it comes to the type of human being that generates trust, especially among rural folks that live in states like Oregon and Minnesota.